wretchedness

I feel totally wretched today. I should be working on my book, and I have NO ENERGY whatsoever. I was wondering if it's something to do with my eating. Probably, my diet is horrible. I need to stop eating junk food.

I watch my supervisor at work, and he's so lazy. He sits there and does nothing. All day long.

I physically don't think I can go into that place anymore. It exhausts me, just thinking about it. I may have to just quit, and never go back. I mean, never go back at all.

I had a dream last night, I was a hopeful dream, about movie ideas. And in one part, I was directing a film I had written, and ... it was just nice, to feel something positive.

I think about negativity, and the concept of dwelling in it. And ... I have to admit, it doesn't feel good to dwell in despair. I was thinking also ... when I think back on my life, my college days with Tammy, it's interesting to me that in so many ways, I'm the same person.

I had this fortune cookie that said, something to the effect of, an idiot does the same thing over and over and expects different results. And in some ways, I have done that. I have gone to my stupid job, I've done the same things over and over and expected different results, when none have shown up.