Thursday Morning

It's Thursday, and I'm at the coffeehouse. I got here really late this morning, and I've been doing nothing, skimming the internet and watching videos. I got here really late today.

I feel like I'm going to quit, even though it would be nice to not have to do that. I think I'm going to just quit, and go do massage. I mean, I hate the idea of not having a big savings account and such. But I'm realizing something ... I don't have any energy left to write. It's exhausting to have to go to that wretched mailroom and do everything.

It's tiime to leave. I really hate it there, and I"m just exhausted.

I just saw this movie trailer, for something called, "Margot at the Wedding." And it looked really interesting. It really makes me want to make movies, all of a sudden. And I realize, I'm not living that passion. And even though I'm old now, I'm not dead. It's not too late.

I feel like I'm going to exhale. I feel like I have a breath I've been holding for a really long time, and I'm about to let it go.