Iphone Saturday

It's Saturday, and I'm at the coffeehouse, as usual. I'm thinking of going ... no, I'm definitely going to go get my Iphone today.

I should wait for ... whatever reason, but screw it. I want the darn thing now, and I'm going to get it now. In fact, I think I ... I don't know, I want so much. There are so many toys and things that I want, like a new Mac laptop and desktop.

But those are all toys, I want. And really ... are they that important?

The more I think about it, the more I want to devote my life to making movies. Because, that is what I really want to do, devote my life to making movies. And I keep thinking to myself, what is the point? What is the point of living half a life?

Is that what Dawnea did? Did she run away, and just give up on being a psychic? Was that the right thing for her to do? Because, this world needs a lot of help.

When I think back on her, I think to myself taht she gave up on her mission. I totally feel like she should have been out there, on a concert stage, doing her "evenings," her experience with Riding the Dragon, or whatever she called it.

I feel myself growing older in subtle ways, and ... falling behind on technology. I'm tired of being in this energy of being stuck. And I really want to ... kind of investigate the computer more, and work on my book, on getting myself up on the web.

I wrote some last night, and it was fun, but it amazed me how quickly I fell asleep, as soon as I worked on editing the book.

There is an older man in here, and he keeps insisting on speaking Mandarin Chinese to the girl who works behind the counter, even though she is Asian, she doesn't understand the language. And it's really annoying, that he's so insistent.

When I think about the sort of ... way that my life is stuck, I think of my book, and the girl in it, the one set in England that I want to write. And I realize, that in some ways, it is like her life. The way she was stuck in this subservient position and how she just sort of faded away. It's really easy to just fade away, and in some ways, I feel like that's what I'm doing.

But darn, I do like working on my book.