I don't want to go to work

I should start to call this the "I hate my job" blog.

I have to go back to work today, and I don't want to do it. I don't want to work anymore, at all. I don't ever want to go back to that place.

But then again, I don't want to work at the Mini Day Spa. I would hate to start doing massage, and then realize I don't want to turn that into another job that I hate.

I guess ... maybe I will stay at my job, and just continue to work on the book. Of course, I get here at 7 in the morning, and ... i start looking at the internet, and I get nothing done. But I worked a lot on the book over the weekend.

I want to get away from it all, and go on a vacation. I would love to go to Paris. Hell, I would love to start working on a new novel, I'm so flipping sick of the one I'm writing. I need to finish it, but its so much work. I want to just rest and do nothing. I feel really exhausted.

I guess I'm bored and depressed. I don't want to work anymore, I don't want to go back to work at all, ever. I want to kick back and relax.

It's weird, too, because I have the guides, and yet ... they don't really do anything. They seem to do some energy work, but ... nothing happens. I guess I shouldn't bitch, though, because maybe the purpose is that they are helping me with my writing. If that's the case, then it would be stupid for me to complain.