come saturday morning

It's Saturday morning, I'm sitting here staring at my computer doing nothing. How pathetic. I'm definitely going to see Iron Man this morning.

I did wake up early and walk to the bank to deposit a check. And went and got Starbucks. I think ... it's just hard, to live life in some ways. It's really frustrating, to have hopes and dreams. But ... I think I'm more interested in living in the moment.

I was going to relabel this blog something about "rants against the establishment." And it's interesting to me. Because, I see all these people at work, and I realize that I don't want to do their jobs or be like them in any way. They are all scrambling for power, and yet, together we are all living on a planet that is dying. It's like, you have all these independent little cells scrambling for power indificually, but because they won't work together, they will all die. So why should I want to be life them?

I guess, it's hard for me to do something, unless it has meaning. And it only has meaning to me, if I am helping people.