Blah

I feel blah right now. It's Monday, and I have the day off. I was going to visit my family, and at the last minute, they cancelled on me.

I notice things about myself, that I get stuck in one place in life. Well, in every way. I never clean up my apartment, which desperately needs it. Even when I have a day off, I just sort of sit here in my muck. Maybe meditate, which ... always stays in the same place. But still, I guess I feel hopeful.

What I've told myself lately is to be happy with gradual change, if I can find it. Also, I've been telling myself that what I need to do is write. Not worry about all this other stuff, focus on writing my stories and finishing them. I really want to finish writing my book. Actually, I'm very excited about writing it and finishing it. And even if I gradually inch toward doing it, at least I'm making some progress.

I really need to clean up my apartment, too. But that can wait.